One of the things the Lord has been showing me recently is that dying to self is not necessarily a one-time experience. It is a moment by moment thing as I obey the Lord through my conscience. I think I expect there to just be a “moment” where the Lord changes me and then things will be different. But now I am understanding that the Lord will change me as I specifically obey Him each moment…little by little.
As I was trying to understand this the other day, I was being more aware of my conscience and the Lord speaking to me, and something happened that was a confirmation that I am on the right track. It was in the afternoon and all the kids were outside playing enjoying the beautiful 70 degree weather. I had just finished cleaning up the kitchen and picking up the house a little and wanted to just go plop and read or something. Then the Lord nudged me through my conscience that I should go out and play with the kids for a bit. I didn’t want to, but I obeyed.
I went out and it wasn’t more than a few minutes after going outside that something happened that I was so glad I was outside to experience it with my son. My 8 year old has a little baby tooth that has refused to come out. The permanent tooth is completely in and that baby tooth was sticking straight out from the side of his gum, refusing to come out very easily. I have been trying to remove it for a while now and it just hasn’t come. Well, as they were playing basketball, the ball bounced and came up and hit my son in the chin. He said he felt something in his mouth and spit it out and it was his tooth. I was right there to enjoy the moment with him. I knew right then that the Lord was confirming to me that I needed to obey Him..that He knows best what I need and what my kids need.
I know that is something really simple, but it was very specific to me and the Lord used it to move me forward with Him. I am learning to die to myself and walk in obedience to Him…moment by moment.
Praying you have a blessed day…full of love and obedience!